I had a wonderful Birthday being 19 is not so bad, I defiantly cried more when I turned 15. (Who Knows?) I did cry however. I realized life really does go by fast, especially when you are not really paying attention. I got a lot of fantastic things when I went shopping in the big city. It was fun! I also had a great dinner with my family. I had such a magnificent superb day that I forgot about “him” for a couple of hours. Believe me it’s harder than you would think to forget about someone that you just can’t stop thinking about. Its redonkulous!!!! My birthday never seemed to end people were taking me out to dinner and among those people were August’s mother and step father. I know what you are thinking why the hell would I be hanging out with my ex boyfriends parents. Well let me tell you something. They are amazing wonderful people and if I did not have them in my life I don’t know how the hell I would have been able to deal with the shit I had to deal with the last few months. They are my friends and only want what’s best for me. They gave me a Swedish hand book and a really cool colorful picture of a black cat done by a local artist. The day after my birthday I got a package from Sweden. I was sooooo excited about the stamp for the most part. HAHAHAHAHA! And of course what was inside. I got a cd that you download on your computer to help you learn Swedish. I have been having fun with that. I got a bunch of other things but I don’t really feel like listing all the stuff I got for my “special” day. HAHAHA! Also the other day I met one of the new residents, her name is Barbro and she is from Göteborg. Sooooo now I have to Swedes to practice my Swedish with at work. How cool is that! I think it’s rather exciting myself. HAHAHAH!
Sooooo I think I am really done with August even as a friend. I just can’t deal with the fact of what he did. I did talk to him on the phone and it was good. We had a good conversation. I just think it would be best for me to just cut him off from my life, the way I see things he decide to do that long before I did, all because he couldn’t keep his dick in his pants. HAHAHA! (Sorry for being crude but it’s the truth) If you really ever loved or even cared for that person, you would never want to do something that you know would hurt them. My plan is to just fade from his life. I don’t even he will notice or care really. But I know it’s the right decision….right? I mean he is in a psychiatric facility, and he has told me that I am one of his few “friends” that he can talk to. Whatever I am mostly at work anyway and to worn-out to talk to anyone….we shall see how this goes.
One more thing I am so grateful to have all the people that care about me and love me in my life. You are the reason why I look forward to life, to look forward to living. Even the people that I really don’t know that well you have affected my life in a way and for that I thank you.
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