The other day was not one of my best days. I was a mess all day long. I had a day off from work and I chose to spend it crying. I think it just because I really have not had much time to reflect on a lot of things cause I am working all the time….( ok not all the time but it sure as hell feels like I am). I was mostly upset because I felt like I was cursed to spend my life alone….( I could, but I really would be nice to have someone….) I just don’t understand how you can give everything to someone and then they just screw you over like you don’t even matter. I know I am not the first or the last person to get their heart broken, but I am just scared. I just wonder if a guy will be willing to deal with the fact that I am “damaged”. But maybe he will be damaged to…..who freaking knows…..? I just know I am going to guard my heart, to the existent were people will begin to question if I even have a heart….How sad is that?
PS: August is gone and he didn’t even want to see me to say goodbye. I know I shouldn’t care but I do.
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