Time Flies When You Are Having Fun....So True

 Is it really already the end of the month? When did this happen!? I feel like it has gone by way to fast. Before life/time seemed to be going by super slow speed, it was so painful I just wanted it to be over. Now I never want this feeling to go away, it’s amazing. So you probably want to know how my date with Ryan went. It went really well I couldn’t stop smiling afterwards. I was so happy. He is a really sweet guy that makes me laugh and smile and I really love spending time with him. He is the best. I have not really stopped hanging out with him sense our first date. That’s why I have not been on here for awhile. Lately I have been only doing three things, working, sleeping or hanging out with Ryan. I wish I could tell you all the aspects of this relationship (yes I did say relationship) but I want to keep this to myself in a way. It’s really special to me. It’s all just happing so fast, but it feels so right. I would actually be ok to use the word boyfriend…( I hate that word, but I could use it with Ryan….it’s kind of freaking me out) I really like this kid….I feel like I should have my heart more on lock down, I mean that was my plan, I mean seeing what the heck I have just been through I should be a total bitch to any guy who is only just being nice to me. HAHAHAHAHAhAhA! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! I think I know what this is…but it just can’t be. I should explain that I really did like Ryan for awhile, but I repressed my feelings for him cause 1. We work together 2. He is a bit older than me (but I like it, I thought he had a problem with my age) 3. I just got out of a rather fucked up relationship and I didn’t really think I had anything to offer. So he was like the guy that I just messed with at work. We played pranks on each other and well we set up Christmas trees together. That’s where we really bonded, it’s not a lie when they say the holidays bring people closer together. It’s just funny how when you have an open mind, things become so clear. Things really do happen for a reason. It’s like destiny or something crazy like that. Well I work tonight but Ryan is going to come and pick me up and he is going to come over and we are going to watch Despicable Me. I am sooo excited! Ok so I know I say this a lot but…I will be back and I will try to write at least once I week. I promise! I will do my best, until next time. Love Life!