Today was so remarkably incredible. I got to go hiking and be surrounded by wild untamable nature, being out in there makes me really think about life and the bigger picture. There is so much I want to do…and guess what I can! Yes I am sad and hurt, but I will get over it, (what choices do I have really, be happy? Or mop around? Being happy sounds better, it also looks better) I’m already starting to laugh about the situation. I have a deep confession to make however. I miss August very much and I want to know how he is doing….but if I call him he will think we are all good…which were NOT. I just worry about the kid. I did (and still do) love him. I just don’t know what to do. A part of me wants to show compassion and still be there for him as a friend…and the other part of me wants to make him suffer and pay for what he did. The fact of the matter is even if I castrated him, it wouldn’t be good enough because what he did to me was ten times worse. Ain’t that a bitch…?
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