Today I went to work! I hadn’t been there in over three days. (Just so you know I work at an old folks home, it’s like a hotel full of very well off elderly people. I work as a waiters in the restaurant) Last time I was there (on Sunday the day I broke up with August) I ended up throwing up at work. It was horrible. My boss still wanted me to work and like the G that I am I worked the whole night, even though I was repressing the urge to hurl on the elderly. Any way it was nice to be back, the older folks always can make me smile they are so sweet (and not to brag but they love me…hehehe!) But I was sooo forgetful, I thought I was fine but my mind was on a track of it’s on, and I hate to say it but it was on August. I miss him a lot and I am worried about him. I hope he’s ok, but at the same time I hate his guts! Love and hate go hand in hand (how wonderful). Any who I forgot to bring deserts and drinks to some of the residents (aka the elderly people that live there) I even missed the fact that I got a new table and they had been sitting there for over thirty minutes, I felt so bad, luckily it was two very sweet elderly ladies that like me so it was ok….I still feel awful about it. I mean how could I not see them, I couldn’t believe that I missed them completely, that’s not me. Other than that work went well I had fun talking to the other waiters and the dish washer boy (he’s a cool guy…not interested though. So don’t even think about it!) I have another deep confession to make (it’s pretty sad and pathetic but I couldn’t help myself…so don’t judge) I drove by August’s house after I got off of work (I will have you know that we do live somewhat close) …I know! It’s appalling! I really miss him and I just want to talk to him but I can’t its killing me! This is way worse than having someone you love dead, because it’s physically impossible to talk to them there’s just no way, but August is still around I know he is and the temptation is so strong. I need to control myself. Oh boy this is tough stuff!
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